Whoops, I forgot to write yesterday. We got Sunday off, which was so nice to relax after two busy days. I went to breakfast at Pig 'n Pancake with my friends Jill and Zach and then we went to Cannon Beach Bible Church. I thought my home church was small! This church was tiny with about 40 people and 15 of us were program staff from CBCC. It was a good sermon and the pastor used lots of Greek words which was fun because I tried to remember them from fall quarter and would write them on my bulletin. After lunch I went to Seaside with a new friend in search of a watch. I did not find one but bought some cute earrings instead. Then I napped and walked on the beach while calling some people. Then the three Summer Staff Ministers hosted SNL (Sunday Night Live) with some worship and sharing their testimonies. It was a really cool time and afterwards I had a lot of great laughs with some new friends.
Today we had more decoration and then learned about all the paperwork we have to do to keep track of kids, injuries, our hours, days off, etc. :S After the not-so-fun stuff we split into our age groups and went on a photo scavenger hunt requiring us to get pictures with big dogs, little dogs, Haystack Rock, several restaurants, seagulls, rolling down a sand dune, and more fun things. After dinner, my table hung around for an hour and a half having the most random and hilarious conversation. I got a great ab workout from all the laughter. I think it's going to be a fun summer. :)
Getting to the title of my post...one of the parts of training today was about thinking about the dirt we brought with us to Cannon Beach and what it is we need to give up to God so we can focus on Him and our task to serve (towel = washing feet) the kids, their families, and our co-workers this summer. It was really powerful. As I sat looking at my cup of dirt, I thought about the past year. Wow, so much has happened. A lot of good, some bad, some awesome, and some awful. I am so blessed that God gave me this opportunity to work here. I'm missing out on seeing my family and friends and doing so many other things this summer, but it's for a reason--because He wants me here to learn something, to grow, to touch people's lives and be touched as well. I know what I've been holding on to, what to give up to Him and I've known for awhile and tried. But tonight as we were asked to do this again after so many convicting sermons at Bethany this year I still realize, I don't really know the "how". I know the "what" and "why" but applying it is not clicking for me. God has so much prepared and planned for me, better than I could ever imagine. Why can't I just give it all to Him and follow? How do I let go? I don't know that there's an easy answer. I think maybe it's just something I have to do each morning: wake up, give it to Him and then live that day with God in my sights. It sounds simple so why am I making it so difficult?
Lots of things to think and pray about. Right now I need to sleep though because somehow I convinced my crazy (not really) new girlfriends that I would run to Haystack with them at 7am. :P
Monday, June 14, 2010
Saturday, June 12, 2010
I get paid to have fun!
I would love to write a little something each day this summer so I can remember all the awesome, fun, memorable, and God things that happen. Today was day 2 of training and I got paid to have fun! We spent the morning doing a challenge course. I did this really fun swing thing. You get in a harness and run down a hill while eight other people run the opposite direction pulling the rope attached to your harness that runs through a pulley 30ft in the air. This catapults you up and then you swing. It was so much fun. After that we decorated classrooms...I drew and cut out dozens of crystals for the 4-5 year old room's theme of journey to the center of the earth. And today we finally found out the age group we will be working with. I got K2 (4-5th grade) which is exactly what I wanted and I was really excited. My team is not complete yet because some people are still arriving but so far the guy and girl seem cool. In our separate groups we then had a sand sculpture contest. Our awesome VW bug(very detailed) on a road did not win grand prize although we kept in line with our Route 66 theme.
After dinner, a handful of us walked to Haystack Rock and back and then sat and talked on the beach until the sunset. I finished the night playing 3-on-3 basketball with 5 of the guys on staff. I made one basket all night :( Those jr. high skills are a little rusty apparently.
All in all it was a wonderful day! I think I'm really going to like this place. Not that I had a doubt before, but it's very confirmed now. I can't wait for the guests and kids to arrive, but I don't want to rush things because I feel like this summer will already fly by too fast.
Off to bed now and I get to sleep in a bit since we have tomorrow off and church isn't until late morning.
After dinner, a handful of us walked to Haystack Rock and back and then sat and talked on the beach until the sunset. I finished the night playing 3-on-3 basketball with 5 of the guys on staff. I made one basket all night :( Those jr. high skills are a little rusty apparently.
All in all it was a wonderful day! I think I'm really going to like this place. Not that I had a doubt before, but it's very confirmed now. I can't wait for the guests and kids to arrive, but I don't want to rush things because I feel like this summer will already fly by too fast.
Off to bed now and I get to sleep in a bit since we have tomorrow off and church isn't until late morning.
Friday, June 11, 2010
A Dream Come True
I've pinched myself a couple times but the sound of waves and the feeling of sand between my toes won't go away. I am really spending my entire summer working at Cannon Beach! I have wanted to do this ever since we came here over ten years ago. What a blessing for it to work out this summer.
I drove down yesterday with a friend who goes to school with me and is also working here. My housing situation had been changed a few times and I requested a switch from the old, tiny dorms to the new and nicer ones. Unfortunately the room I got was not that great, teeny tiny storage that was mostly taken over by the two other girls. Everything was dirty so I had to clean before unpacking. Oh, and one of the girls had pet bugs in cages and apparently some got out today? ewww So, I was able to request a room switch with my friend from school and two other cools in a bigger, cleaner, and bug-free room! I'm all moved in and decorated.
I made myself a promise that I will go to the beach everyday this summer. How could you not when it's about 100 yards away?
I am working on Program staff which is with the children and I find out tomorrow what age group I get! The staff seem really fun so far. Training was long and full of those "learn everyone's name" games. We had our first of many bonfires tonight. It was so fun to see the stars and getting to know some fun people by asking all sorts of crazy questions.
I should probably go to bed now so I can function tomorrow. We have to do a challenge course.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Hannah of Green Gables
Okay so it doesn't have quite the same ring to it. In the past week, I've watched Anne of Green Gables and the sequel with my parents. I love those movies! They follow the books SO well, which is rare. After the movie, I realized how alike Anne Shirley and I are. She's a teacher, I will be a teacher someday. She's a write, I am too, kinda. She talks a lot, I can too. She has a wonderful imagination, I do too. She is a romantic, and so am I. Every time I watch that movie, I wish I could live at Green Gables and in that time period. I love the clothes, the hair, the culture and the beautiful farm by the sea.
Back to reality though...it is the weekend! I am so glad. Got off work a couple hours ago, sipping an Arnold Palmer (my new favorite drink) and heading out on the boat with friends in a little bit.
Back to reality though...it is the weekend! I am so glad. Got off work a couple hours ago, sipping an Arnold Palmer (my new favorite drink) and heading out on the boat with friends in a little bit.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
A Day of Rest
sigh...a day of rest is SO nice and necessary sometimes. I have been on 'go' constantly the last couple of weeks and it feels so good to just relax today. I've been listening to music while taking care of little to-do tasks as well as reading lots. I am know writing again. I have put my first book on hold for a little bit as I need to write some of the ideas that have been swirling in my head lately. Maybe it's not so smart to start another book before even finishing a decent chapter of one. But who's gonna stop me? lol
So that past couple weeks, SO much work! oyi, maybe I'm not ready to grow up yet! Naw, it's been okay, I'm just still adjusting to the mindset of full-time work and having to squeeze fun stuff, relaxing, friends, family, etc on the weekends! Went to the church campout last weekend and had an absolute blast! It was so nice to just hang out with people and not think or care about any of my to-do items. No email, no facebook, no texting. Sure I really love those things and would have a hard time without them but taking a break from them is SO SO nice. After 3 days at the campout, my dad, brother and I headed south, picking up a friend on the way to meet up with 15 others for a 3-dya river rafting trip. Again no cell phones or computers. Camping alongside the river at night, sleeping under the stars, spending time investing in what really matters: relationships. Oh I am so blessed by wonderful friends God has placed in my life. That group has an age range of 13-52 yet each and every one of them is my good friend regardless of age. The various ages allow for different kinds of relationships. There are people I am an example to, people I am at the same level, and those who I can seek for advice. I think the friendships I have with people of all ages is due to homeschooling because I was not surrounded by only my peers so I learned how to interact with all people and I am truly grateful for that today.
River rafting was such a blast! I will admit that I was a little nervous at first and wondering why I had replied to the email saying "sure, I'll go!" On the 3rd day when I saw the first 4 boats go through the Class 3 Rapids, I gripped the seat and thought, "what the heck was I thinking!?!?" but....I loved it! It was not scary or dangerous at all and I would go again in a heartbeat. Sunny weather, good friends, great food, dangling your feet in the cool water--all for 3 whole days, what more could you ask for??? Not much, I think.
Now I am home for the rest of the summer. 6 weeks from yesterday until I move back to school. Oh, so much to do in so little time!
So that past couple weeks, SO much work! oyi, maybe I'm not ready to grow up yet! Naw, it's been okay, I'm just still adjusting to the mindset of full-time work and having to squeeze fun stuff, relaxing, friends, family, etc on the weekends! Went to the church campout last weekend and had an absolute blast! It was so nice to just hang out with people and not think or care about any of my to-do items. No email, no facebook, no texting. Sure I really love those things and would have a hard time without them but taking a break from them is SO SO nice. After 3 days at the campout, my dad, brother and I headed south, picking up a friend on the way to meet up with 15 others for a 3-dya river rafting trip. Again no cell phones or computers. Camping alongside the river at night, sleeping under the stars, spending time investing in what really matters: relationships. Oh I am so blessed by wonderful friends God has placed in my life. That group has an age range of 13-52 yet each and every one of them is my good friend regardless of age. The various ages allow for different kinds of relationships. There are people I am an example to, people I am at the same level, and those who I can seek for advice. I think the friendships I have with people of all ages is due to homeschooling because I was not surrounded by only my peers so I learned how to interact with all people and I am truly grateful for that today.
River rafting was such a blast! I will admit that I was a little nervous at first and wondering why I had replied to the email saying "sure, I'll go!" On the 3rd day when I saw the first 4 boats go through the Class 3 Rapids, I gripped the seat and thought, "what the heck was I thinking!?!?" but....I loved it! It was not scary or dangerous at all and I would go again in a heartbeat. Sunny weather, good friends, great food, dangling your feet in the cool water--all for 3 whole days, what more could you ask for??? Not much, I think.
Now I am home for the rest of the summer. 6 weeks from yesterday until I move back to school. Oh, so much to do in so little time!
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Quick Trip
Well, I am currently sitting in the Salt Lake City airport waiting for my flight home. I was in So Cal this past weekend for a wedding--the first of the cousins on my dad's side of the family to get married! If you didn't already know this about me, I love weddings and theirs was no exception! The music, the flowers, the vows, the dress, the ring, the dance, the smiles and the laughter! The story of their first kiss and engagement was SO romantic. A walk along the beach. They saw a shooting star and both made a wish. He asked her what she wished for. She wouldn't tell because then it doesn't come true. He kissed her and then she said, 'that's what I wished for"! Engagement story was a re-enactment of that date: a walk on the beach to the same location and then a beautiful ring. :) Isn't that so cute???
Oh, I am such a romantic! I really want a cute, romantic, thoughtful, and unique engagement story. I mean if I get a cliche fancy dinner and then down on one knee proposal when the time comes, it's not like I'm gonna refuse. I know I will love however my story goes but I fear being disappointed that it's not some really sweet story. I want so meting so cute and wonderful!
My cousins did a couple cool things at their wedding that I have never seen before and will have to keep in mind. Beginning the reception was an introduction of the parents and wedding party with little stories of how those people affected the bride and/or groom's life. Then the new couple was introduced and they sat back to back each holding a pink and blue flag. They played the Newlywed game and were asked about 20 questions such as "who takes longer showers, who is the better driver, who will take out the trash", etc and they would both raise a flag indicating who they thought the answer was. They agreed on a lot of them but the ones they disagreed on were really funny. The last question was my favorite: "who was the better catch?" And instantly, the groom raised the pink flag and the bride raised the blue flag! Awwww :) They also had about 10 guests play musical chairs but rather than grab a chair first, they had to grab items such as grocery receipts, make-up compact, specific car keys from other guests and then get back to the seats first. One of my aunts had to do it and it was so funny to watch her run around! Such a fun and beautiful wedding.
I have another cousin on that side getting married in October and just found out today about some friends getting engaged! We are all growing up!
Aside from the wedding, my trip to California also included a wonderful day with my roomie and hanging out with family. My roomie and I looked at pictures, talked, went to lunch at CPK and got French pedicures, so fun! Seeing family and catching up with everyone was fun as well. The weather wasn't too bad. A bit hot a few times but overall enjoyable.
I left the palm trees this morning and in 3 hours I will be back on a plane and then back home to the pine trees.
Oh, I am such a romantic! I really want a cute, romantic, thoughtful, and unique engagement story. I mean if I get a cliche fancy dinner and then down on one knee proposal when the time comes, it's not like I'm gonna refuse. I know I will love however my story goes but I fear being disappointed that it's not some really sweet story. I want so meting so cute and wonderful!
My cousins did a couple cool things at their wedding that I have never seen before and will have to keep in mind. Beginning the reception was an introduction of the parents and wedding party with little stories of how those people affected the bride and/or groom's life. Then the new couple was introduced and they sat back to back each holding a pink and blue flag. They played the Newlywed game and were asked about 20 questions such as "who takes longer showers, who is the better driver, who will take out the trash", etc and they would both raise a flag indicating who they thought the answer was. They agreed on a lot of them but the ones they disagreed on were really funny. The last question was my favorite: "who was the better catch?" And instantly, the groom raised the pink flag and the bride raised the blue flag! Awwww :) They also had about 10 guests play musical chairs but rather than grab a chair first, they had to grab items such as grocery receipts, make-up compact, specific car keys from other guests and then get back to the seats first. One of my aunts had to do it and it was so funny to watch her run around! Such a fun and beautiful wedding.
I have another cousin on that side getting married in October and just found out today about some friends getting engaged! We are all growing up!
Aside from the wedding, my trip to California also included a wonderful day with my roomie and hanging out with family. My roomie and I looked at pictures, talked, went to lunch at CPK and got French pedicures, so fun! Seeing family and catching up with everyone was fun as well. The weather wasn't too bad. A bit hot a few times but overall enjoyable.
I left the palm trees this morning and in 3 hours I will be back on a plane and then back home to the pine trees.
Monday, July 13, 2009
blogging guilt
sorry for not writing in awhile--I feel bad. I think about writing a lot and come up with things to post but then can't find the time to sit down and write. I do hope to post before I leave for CA on Friday and tell about my backpacking trip and other things happening. But for now, here is a poem I wrote for my Theology class (Christ: Culture & Radical Ethics) this past quarter. This poem was in response to the question: In what ways, if at all, can Scripture be a moral guide
for contemporary Christians making moral decisions? I hope you enjoy it and it causes you to think about what you base your descisions on.
The Test of Life
High school graduation,
Cardboard hat and flowing robe.
One summer away from change,
Time to live now on my own.
To be my own person,
and make my own decisions.
Dawn of first day’s freedom
A stack of papers,
Slid beneath the door.
Dozens of questions,
I can’t count how many.
It’s a test and it looks hard.
Who put this here?
When is it due?
Printed in grey,
Some multiple choice
Others true/false.
Questions about
Life
Death
War
Poverty
Relationships
Stewardship
15 minutes til class.
Enough time for a handful.
Hastened guesses,
To clear my conscience.
I really don’t know.
I really don’t care!
Twenty-four hours pass.
The test is back.
First 10 questions gone,
Pure, white emptiness in their place.
Except for my answers,
Bold and black.
Shouting at me.
Each begin with “I believe...”
Number 1, okay
Number 2, mmm hmm
Number 3, NO!
I don’t believe that!
What were my options?
They’re gone!
Lost in the white void
Desperately erasing,
The mocking statement of creed.
Smudging the ink,
It smears and fades to grey,
Blemishing the white paper.
My answer now illegible
Can I start over?
I do care!
The answers are important!
No satisfaction in grey.
“All of the above” is no longer an option.
I must choose carefully.
Everyday, I take the test.
Struggling over answers.
Life-changing questions.
My being hinges,
on an encircled letter.
Everyday, the test returned.
Whiteness a majority,
Bold, black creeds erect,
Grey questions still unanswered.
Uncertainty,
Doubt and confusion.
Which to choose?
Which is right?
Who has answers?
Counsellors,
Parents,
Friends,
All have opinions.
Loud voices shout advice.
Religion adds two cents.
Politics offers agenda.
Confusion has reached its climax.
My reality is twisting,
Spiralling out of control.
There must be a way to know
How to live and maintain sanity.
Can someone help me take the test?
Does anyone have a study guide?
I search my room for aid.
Leather-bound and dusty,
Sitting on my shelf,
A book of Holy wisdom.
Maybe it can help?
Tales of countless mistakes,
And victories numbering the same.
Never-aging lessons,
Recorded for our benefit.
How did they know?
How did they decide?
God-breathed words,
Equipping us “for every good work”,
Omniscient author,
Exceeding human standards,
Beyond ethical confusion,
Righteousness and Goodness all in one.
Jesus, the Word Himself.
Model of unconditional love.
Reaching out to poor and broken,
Perfect answers for complex queries.
Authority from days of old,
Foundational to humankind,
Constitutions, codes and laws,
Based on Truths of blessed Book.
If the Bible can’t be trusted,
We’re limited to human guides.
None more valid than another,
Subjective opinions based on what?
Who’s to say which answer is correct?
Everyone believes their own ideas.
A higher source must be considered,
Perfect melody amidst the din.
One sole Truth must exist,
For judgement of all mankind,
God as Judge knows the laws.
To live blameless, shouldn’t we?
God’s Word is not an answer key,
Spelling out all do’s and don’ts.
Discussion and prayer bring truth,
through discernment and community.
The Bible declares wisdom,
Offering the aid I seek.
Facts that never hold nor hinder,
Instead, freedom offered through the Truth.
1 Sovereign Inspiration,
40 human pens,
1500 years of stories,
All point to 1 Truth.
The Truth of Father, Son, and Spirit,
Love for God and all mankind,
Grace and mercy proclaim salvation,
A blood-stained cross and empty tomb.
Another day,
Another test,
I feel ready,
Now I know.
Confident pen circling here and there
I am not forced to choose A or B
Each answer is my own,
Based on Biblical Truth.
I do not fear blackened answers of tomorrow
Or the white void I leave behind.
So long as all grey disappears,
I know how to live my life.
Each day is a test,
Am I in the world or of it?
Correct answers reflect His love,
Yet, pass or fail He loves me evermore.
for contemporary Christians making moral decisions? I hope you enjoy it and it causes you to think about what you base your descisions on.
The Test of Life
High school graduation,
Cardboard hat and flowing robe.
One summer away from change,
Time to live now on my own.
To be my own person,
and make my own decisions.
Dawn of first day’s freedom
A stack of papers,
Slid beneath the door.
Dozens of questions,
I can’t count how many.
It’s a test and it looks hard.
Who put this here?
When is it due?
Printed in grey,
Some multiple choice
Others true/false.
Questions about
Life
Death
War
Poverty
Relationships
Stewardship
15 minutes til class.
Enough time for a handful.
Hastened guesses,
To clear my conscience.
I really don’t know.
I really don’t care!
Twenty-four hours pass.
The test is back.
First 10 questions gone,
Pure, white emptiness in their place.
Except for my answers,
Bold and black.
Shouting at me.
Each begin with “I believe...”
Number 1, okay
Number 2, mmm hmm
Number 3, NO!
I don’t believe that!
What were my options?
They’re gone!
Lost in the white void
Desperately erasing,
The mocking statement of creed.
Smudging the ink,
It smears and fades to grey,
Blemishing the white paper.
My answer now illegible
Can I start over?
I do care!
The answers are important!
No satisfaction in grey.
“All of the above” is no longer an option.
I must choose carefully.
Everyday, I take the test.
Struggling over answers.
Life-changing questions.
My being hinges,
on an encircled letter.
Everyday, the test returned.
Whiteness a majority,
Bold, black creeds erect,
Grey questions still unanswered.
Uncertainty,
Doubt and confusion.
Which to choose?
Which is right?
Who has answers?
Counsellors,
Parents,
Friends,
All have opinions.
Loud voices shout advice.
Religion adds two cents.
Politics offers agenda.
Confusion has reached its climax.
My reality is twisting,
Spiralling out of control.
There must be a way to know
How to live and maintain sanity.
Can someone help me take the test?
Does anyone have a study guide?
I search my room for aid.
Leather-bound and dusty,
Sitting on my shelf,
A book of Holy wisdom.
Maybe it can help?
Tales of countless mistakes,
And victories numbering the same.
Never-aging lessons,
Recorded for our benefit.
How did they know?
How did they decide?
God-breathed words,
Equipping us “for every good work”,
Omniscient author,
Exceeding human standards,
Beyond ethical confusion,
Righteousness and Goodness all in one.
Jesus, the Word Himself.
Model of unconditional love.
Reaching out to poor and broken,
Perfect answers for complex queries.
Authority from days of old,
Foundational to humankind,
Constitutions, codes and laws,
Based on Truths of blessed Book.
If the Bible can’t be trusted,
We’re limited to human guides.
None more valid than another,
Subjective opinions based on what?
Who’s to say which answer is correct?
Everyone believes their own ideas.
A higher source must be considered,
Perfect melody amidst the din.
One sole Truth must exist,
For judgement of all mankind,
God as Judge knows the laws.
To live blameless, shouldn’t we?
God’s Word is not an answer key,
Spelling out all do’s and don’ts.
Discussion and prayer bring truth,
through discernment and community.
The Bible declares wisdom,
Offering the aid I seek.
Facts that never hold nor hinder,
Instead, freedom offered through the Truth.
1 Sovereign Inspiration,
40 human pens,
1500 years of stories,
All point to 1 Truth.
The Truth of Father, Son, and Spirit,
Love for God and all mankind,
Grace and mercy proclaim salvation,
A blood-stained cross and empty tomb.
Another day,
Another test,
I feel ready,
Now I know.
Confident pen circling here and there
I am not forced to choose A or B
Each answer is my own,
Based on Biblical Truth.
I do not fear blackened answers of tomorrow
Or the white void I leave behind.
So long as all grey disappears,
I know how to live my life.
Each day is a test,
Am I in the world or of it?
Correct answers reflect His love,
Yet, pass or fail He loves me evermore.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Independence Day!
Happy 4th of July! Although this may not get posted until after midnight, I am starting it while it is still the 4th. :) I had a wonderful day relaxing with a couple from my church (my youth leaders and good friends) and playing with their adorable 16 month boy. We had a bbq, played croquet, talked, and then went out on our boat to watch a great firework show! It was a wonderful day.
Sitting on the boat tonight I was reflecting over the day and realized that sadly most holidays have a tendency to become so removed from their original meaning. Many people just love the day off of work, a chance to vacation, good food, family and friends. Yet, today was a celebration of our country's beginning. We watch fireworks, but how many of us really think back to the substance behind the symbol (the Revolutionary War)? And what about all the other wars, hardships, successes, great moments, and tragedies that our country has been through? Today is a celebration of being American, our country's foundation, growth, and all the men and women who gave their lives (both dying and serving) for that. America has come so far since the Pilgrims landed, since Paul Revere rode through the night to warn of the British, since a civil war over slavery almost tore this country in two, since expansion towards the west, since the first plane flight at Kittyhawk, since the Great Depression, since 2 World Wars, since segregation, since walking on the moon. If you can't tell, I love American history. I think I would be content living in any era of our fascinating past. The culture, clothes, music, and lifestyles of each period amaze me and to see the transformation over time is really fun for me. These things make me proud to be an American!
However, with all the cool and wonderful changes also come changes for the worse. Sadly, many freedoms that were once SO important to our founding fathers are now declared unconstitutional. The faith and beliefs that America was based on are now torn out of schools, courthouses, and phrases. People often say "God Bless America" but I don't see any reasons why He should. We (as a whole nation) kill millions of babies, do not uphold traditional marriage, encourage materialism, practice sexual immorality, and continuously turn our backs on God. We want Him out of textbooks, the Pledge of Allegiance, and erased from monuments and yet we still expect him to "Bless America"? Is it just me, or is that really twisted? These things make me ashamed to be an American (especially when the rest of the world looks at us and calls us a "Christian" nation. Sure we're based on Christian beliefs but we're not very Christian anymore.).
Don't get me wrong, I am still thankful to live in America where we have so many opportunities and can worship God without persecution (at least without physical persecution, and at least for now). However, I only see it getting worse.
Sorry if that rained on your patriotic parade at all. I do love our country and am truly grateful for our military and the sacrifices they (and their families) make. I am amazed by all the great things this country has done. But like I said before, bad comes along with the good and since I am so passionate about the good, how can I ignore the bad? Well, as things do get worse, may other things continue to get better!
I hope you all had a wonderful Independence Day! I hope you reflect back on all that our country has been through-the good and the bad-because it is all part of who/what America is today.
Sitting on the boat tonight I was reflecting over the day and realized that sadly most holidays have a tendency to become so removed from their original meaning. Many people just love the day off of work, a chance to vacation, good food, family and friends. Yet, today was a celebration of our country's beginning. We watch fireworks, but how many of us really think back to the substance behind the symbol (the Revolutionary War)? And what about all the other wars, hardships, successes, great moments, and tragedies that our country has been through? Today is a celebration of being American, our country's foundation, growth, and all the men and women who gave their lives (both dying and serving) for that. America has come so far since the Pilgrims landed, since Paul Revere rode through the night to warn of the British, since a civil war over slavery almost tore this country in two, since expansion towards the west, since the first plane flight at Kittyhawk, since the Great Depression, since 2 World Wars, since segregation, since walking on the moon. If you can't tell, I love American history. I think I would be content living in any era of our fascinating past. The culture, clothes, music, and lifestyles of each period amaze me and to see the transformation over time is really fun for me. These things make me proud to be an American!
However, with all the cool and wonderful changes also come changes for the worse. Sadly, many freedoms that were once SO important to our founding fathers are now declared unconstitutional. The faith and beliefs that America was based on are now torn out of schools, courthouses, and phrases. People often say "God Bless America" but I don't see any reasons why He should. We (as a whole nation) kill millions of babies, do not uphold traditional marriage, encourage materialism, practice sexual immorality, and continuously turn our backs on God. We want Him out of textbooks, the Pledge of Allegiance, and erased from monuments and yet we still expect him to "Bless America"? Is it just me, or is that really twisted? These things make me ashamed to be an American (especially when the rest of the world looks at us and calls us a "Christian" nation. Sure we're based on Christian beliefs but we're not very Christian anymore.).
Don't get me wrong, I am still thankful to live in America where we have so many opportunities and can worship God without persecution (at least without physical persecution, and at least for now). However, I only see it getting worse.
Sorry if that rained on your patriotic parade at all. I do love our country and am truly grateful for our military and the sacrifices they (and their families) make. I am amazed by all the great things this country has done. But like I said before, bad comes along with the good and since I am so passionate about the good, how can I ignore the bad? Well, as things do get worse, may other things continue to get better!
I hope you all had a wonderful Independence Day! I hope you reflect back on all that our country has been through-the good and the bad-because it is all part of who/what America is today.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
1 month down, 2.5 to go
June?!?!? Where did you go? Well, okay then...Hello July! My mom pointed out that there are onlye 177 days until Christmas! Geez, it seems like forever ago that I was doing Christmas parties at school, dressing up really wierd and then riding the train home for break. And yet, the past 6 months have flown by! Time is a very funny thing; I can't wait until it no longer matters. Although, trying to think about eternity right now (with time as my only context) it is extremely confusing and kinda scary. It's okay though becuase I know I won't care about it but will just be worshipping my Lord forever and ever!
4th of July is this weekend? Any fun plans? Traditions? Sometimes we go watch the fireworks show in town, sometimes we do our own. I don't think we're doing either this year but I have no idea.
July reminds me of more summery things I love:
~bonfires
~popsicles
~lemondae
~bbq
~red/white/blue
~fireworks
~flowers
~Cannon Beach, OR
The last brings back so many wonderful memories! My family went there for 9 summers in a row and had a blast each time! I have always planned to work their one summer as a teacher for on of the kids groups. I think I will do that next summer Lord willing. Ahh...a whole summer in the cutest little town, teaching kids, being on the beach! I can't wait. :)
But for now...the sun is setting and I think I will do some reading. Happy July!
4th of July is this weekend? Any fun plans? Traditions? Sometimes we go watch the fireworks show in town, sometimes we do our own. I don't think we're doing either this year but I have no idea.
July reminds me of more summery things I love:
~bonfires
~popsicles
~lemondae
~bbq
~red/white/blue
~fireworks
~flowers
~Cannon Beach, OR
The last brings back so many wonderful memories! My family went there for 9 summers in a row and had a blast each time! I have always planned to work their one summer as a teacher for on of the kids groups. I think I will do that next summer Lord willing. Ahh...a whole summer in the cutest little town, teaching kids, being on the beach! I can't wait. :)
But for now...the sun is setting and I think I will do some reading. Happy July!
Saturday, June 27, 2009
It Feels Like Summer Now
This week the warm weather and sunshine showed up! I've been sitting out in the sunshine reading and played beach volleyball with some friends yesteryday. Now, today, for the first time of the summer, I'm going out on our boat! I am so excited. Something about sitting in the bow of a boat, sunlight sparkling on the water, wind racing through my hair, and cool mist spraying me is so satisfying you can't help but smile, close your eyes, and try to soak it all in. This is just one example of the little, trivial moments in life that are so wonderful and should never be taken for granted.
Do you ever take time to just sit quietly and really look at everything around you. Our lives have become so instant with everything at the tip of our fingers in our cell phones or laptops. Sure technology is great and makes our lives easier, but...getting away from it all is so refreshing. I took a 4-wheeler ride the other day up in the mountains behind my house. When we reached the top we got off and walked a couple yards to the edge. The view took my breath away. I was looking for miles of tall, magestic, tree-covered mountains. I could see a large pond and a waterfall. Boulders the size of houses, birds soaring through the air, tall pine trees reaching towards the blue sky filled with puffy, white clouds. In that moment all is silent and you feel as though you could sit there forever and never get over how awesome it all is. Then my mind wanders and I think that this snapshot view I have is a teeny, tiny area of the entire world. I am one person among 6+ billion. God created that scenery, God created me, and in this moment all 3 (God, me and creation) were interacting in such a wonderful way. I was in awe of my God's power. I would encourage you to take time and regluarly find a place where you can sit in silence admiring God's creation. The beach, a mountain, a river, even your backyard! From biology classes we learn about the complex designs of weather, soil, plants, animals, and humans. Everything has a purpose and the means necessary to survive and function for that purpose. God designed and created it all...and now...He holds it all in the palm of his hand. Our God is Great! Amen.
Do you ever take time to just sit quietly and really look at everything around you. Our lives have become so instant with everything at the tip of our fingers in our cell phones or laptops. Sure technology is great and makes our lives easier, but...getting away from it all is so refreshing. I took a 4-wheeler ride the other day up in the mountains behind my house. When we reached the top we got off and walked a couple yards to the edge. The view took my breath away. I was looking for miles of tall, magestic, tree-covered mountains. I could see a large pond and a waterfall. Boulders the size of houses, birds soaring through the air, tall pine trees reaching towards the blue sky filled with puffy, white clouds. In that moment all is silent and you feel as though you could sit there forever and never get over how awesome it all is. Then my mind wanders and I think that this snapshot view I have is a teeny, tiny area of the entire world. I am one person among 6+ billion. God created that scenery, God created me, and in this moment all 3 (God, me and creation) were interacting in such a wonderful way. I was in awe of my God's power. I would encourage you to take time and regluarly find a place where you can sit in silence admiring God's creation. The beach, a mountain, a river, even your backyard! From biology classes we learn about the complex designs of weather, soil, plants, animals, and humans. Everything has a purpose and the means necessary to survive and function for that purpose. God designed and created it all...and now...He holds it all in the palm of his hand. Our God is Great! Amen.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Does the weatherman know it's summer?
52 degrees, cloudy, and raining. :( Not very good weather for the 2nd day of summer. I wore pants and a sweater to my first day of work! Which by the way went pretty good. I now have a part time job at Hycomb Marketing (they do newsletters etc for dentists all across the country). Lots of little details, steps, and terms to get down but I think it will all come quickly.
Yesterday was a nice Father's day here (I hope you all gave your dad a hug, or at least called!) It was nice to be back at my home church and see everyone but I also missed Bethany and the traditional Chipotle run! After church mom made delicious wraps and then we sat around and talked for a long time, followed by dad doing a fun activity with each of us--playing ping-pong with my brother and then watching P&P with me! Yes, my dad likes chick flicks, we always have a fun time together.
Second week being home and I still can't get out of bed when my alarm goes off...roomie, can you throw a rubber duck all the way from your house? ;) It's been so nice to have time to read for fun (no textbooks!) and listen to my music. Got to play some volleyball on Saturday which was lots of fun, but man I sure get sore!
Think I'll curl up in a blanket and read until dinner and Bible study.
Yesterday was a nice Father's day here (I hope you all gave your dad a hug, or at least called!) It was nice to be back at my home church and see everyone but I also missed Bethany and the traditional Chipotle run! After church mom made delicious wraps and then we sat around and talked for a long time, followed by dad doing a fun activity with each of us--playing ping-pong with my brother and then watching P&P with me! Yes, my dad likes chick flicks, we always have a fun time together.
Second week being home and I still can't get out of bed when my alarm goes off...roomie, can you throw a rubber duck all the way from your house? ;) It's been so nice to have time to read for fun (no textbooks!) and listen to my music. Got to play some volleyball on Saturday which was lots of fun, but man I sure get sore!
Think I'll curl up in a blanket and read until dinner and Bible study.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
A Poem
High school graduation,
Cardboard hat and flowing robe.
One summer away from change,
Time to live now on my own.
To be my own person,
and make my own decisions.
Dawn of first day’s freedom
A stack of papers,
Slid beneath the door.
Dozens of questions,
I can’t count how many.
It’s a test and it looks hard.
Who put this here?
When is it due?
Printed in grey,
Some multiple choice
Others true/false.
Questions about
Life
Death
War
Poverty
Relationships
Stewardship
15 minutes til class.
Enough time for a handful.
Hastened guesses,
To clear my conscience.
I really don’t know.
I really don’t care!
Twenty-four hours pass.
The test is back.
First 10 questions gone,
Pure, white emptiness in their place.
Except for my answers,
Bold and black.
Shouting at me.
Each begin with “I believe...”
Number 1, okay
Number 2, mmm hmm
Number 3, NO!
I don’t believe that!
What were my options?
They’re gone!
Lost in the white void
Desperately erasing,
The mocking statement of creed.
Smudging the ink,
It smears and fades to grey,
Blemishing the white paper.
My answer now illegible
Can I start over?
I do care!
The answers are important!
No satisfaction in grey.
“All of the above” is no longer an option.
I must choose carefully.
Everyday, I take the test.
Struggling over answers.
Life-changing questions.
My being hinges,
on an encircled letter.
Everyday, the test returned.
Whiteness a majority,
Bold, black creeds erect,
Grey questions still unanswered.
Uncertainty,
Doubt and confusion.
Which to choose?
Which is right?
Who has answers?
Counsellors,
Parents,
Friends,
All have opinions.
Loud voices shout advice.
Religion adds two cents.
Politics offers agenda.
Confusion has reached its climax.
My reality is twisting,
Spiralling out of control.
There must be a way to know
How to live and maintain sanity.
Can someone help me take the test?
Does anyone have a study guide?
I search my room for aid.
Leather-bound and dusty,
Sitting on my shelf,
A book of Holy wisdom.
Maybe it can help?
Tales of countless mistakes,
And victories numbering the same.
Never-aging lessons,
Recorded for our benefit.
How did they know?
How did they decide?
God-breathed words,
Equipping us “for every good work”,
Omniscient author,
Exceeding human standards,
Beyond ethical confusion,
Righteousness and Goodness all in one.
Jesus, the Word Himself.
Model of unconditional love.
Reaching out to poor and broken,
Perfect answers for complex queries.
Authority from days of old,
Foundational to humankind,
Constitutions, codes and laws,
Based on Truths of blessed Book.
If the Bible can’t be trusted,
We’re limited to human guides.
None more valid than another,
Subjective opinions based on what?
Who’s to say which answer is correct?
Everyone believes their own ideas.
A higher source must be considered,
Perfect melody amidst the din.
One sole Truth must exist,
For judgement of all mankind,
God as Judge knows the laws.
To live blameless, shouldn’t we?
God’s Word is not an answer key,
Spelling out all do’s and don’ts.
Discussion and prayer bring truth,
through discernment and community.
The Bible declares wisdom,
Offering the aid I seek.
Facts that never hold nor hinder,
Instead, freedom offered through the Truth.
1 Sovereign Inspiration,
40 human pens,
1500 years of stories,
All point to 1 Truth.
The Truth of Father, Son, and Spirit,
Love for God and all mankind,
Grace and mercy proclaim salvation,
A blood-stained cross and empty tomb.
Another day,
Another test,
I feel ready,
Now I know.
Confident pen circling here and there
I am not forced to choose A or B
Each answer is my own,
Based on Biblical Truth.
I do not fear blackened answers of tomorrow
Or the white void I leave behind.
So long as all grey disappears,
I know how to live my life.
Each day is a test,
Am I in the world or of it?
Correct answers reflect His love,
Yet, pass or fail He loves me evermore
Cardboard hat and flowing robe.
One summer away from change,
Time to live now on my own.
To be my own person,
and make my own decisions.
Dawn of first day’s freedom
A stack of papers,
Slid beneath the door.
Dozens of questions,
I can’t count how many.
It’s a test and it looks hard.
Who put this here?
When is it due?
Printed in grey,
Some multiple choice
Others true/false.
Questions about
Life
Death
War
Poverty
Relationships
Stewardship
15 minutes til class.
Enough time for a handful.
Hastened guesses,
To clear my conscience.
I really don’t know.
I really don’t care!
Twenty-four hours pass.
The test is back.
First 10 questions gone,
Pure, white emptiness in their place.
Except for my answers,
Bold and black.
Shouting at me.
Each begin with “I believe...”
Number 1, okay
Number 2, mmm hmm
Number 3, NO!
I don’t believe that!
What were my options?
They’re gone!
Lost in the white void
Desperately erasing,
The mocking statement of creed.
Smudging the ink,
It smears and fades to grey,
Blemishing the white paper.
My answer now illegible
Can I start over?
I do care!
The answers are important!
No satisfaction in grey.
“All of the above” is no longer an option.
I must choose carefully.
Everyday, I take the test.
Struggling over answers.
Life-changing questions.
My being hinges,
on an encircled letter.
Everyday, the test returned.
Whiteness a majority,
Bold, black creeds erect,
Grey questions still unanswered.
Uncertainty,
Doubt and confusion.
Which to choose?
Which is right?
Who has answers?
Counsellors,
Parents,
Friends,
All have opinions.
Loud voices shout advice.
Religion adds two cents.
Politics offers agenda.
Confusion has reached its climax.
My reality is twisting,
Spiralling out of control.
There must be a way to know
How to live and maintain sanity.
Can someone help me take the test?
Does anyone have a study guide?
I search my room for aid.
Leather-bound and dusty,
Sitting on my shelf,
A book of Holy wisdom.
Maybe it can help?
Tales of countless mistakes,
And victories numbering the same.
Never-aging lessons,
Recorded for our benefit.
How did they know?
How did they decide?
God-breathed words,
Equipping us “for every good work”,
Omniscient author,
Exceeding human standards,
Beyond ethical confusion,
Righteousness and Goodness all in one.
Jesus, the Word Himself.
Model of unconditional love.
Reaching out to poor and broken,
Perfect answers for complex queries.
Authority from days of old,
Foundational to humankind,
Constitutions, codes and laws,
Based on Truths of blessed Book.
If the Bible can’t be trusted,
We’re limited to human guides.
None more valid than another,
Subjective opinions based on what?
Who’s to say which answer is correct?
Everyone believes their own ideas.
A higher source must be considered,
Perfect melody amidst the din.
One sole Truth must exist,
For judgement of all mankind,
God as Judge knows the laws.
To live blameless, shouldn’t we?
God’s Word is not an answer key,
Spelling out all do’s and don’ts.
Discussion and prayer bring truth,
through discernment and community.
The Bible declares wisdom,
Offering the aid I seek.
Facts that never hold nor hinder,
Instead, freedom offered through the Truth.
1 Sovereign Inspiration,
40 human pens,
1500 years of stories,
All point to 1 Truth.
The Truth of Father, Son, and Spirit,
Love for God and all mankind,
Grace and mercy proclaim salvation,
A blood-stained cross and empty tomb.
Another day,
Another test,
I feel ready,
Now I know.
Confident pen circling here and there
I am not forced to choose A or B
Each answer is my own,
Based on Biblical Truth.
I do not fear blackened answers of tomorrow
Or the white void I leave behind.
So long as all grey disappears,
I know how to live my life.
Each day is a test,
Am I in the world or of it?
Correct answers reflect His love,
Yet, pass or fail He loves me evermore
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Let's give this a try
Okay, so a lot of my friends have started blogs and I decided 'hey, it might be fun to do one too', so here I go.
I have been home from college for 3 days and I'm already loving my summer. There are just so many wonderful things about summer how could you not love it? Some of my favorite things about summer include:
~sleeping in
~flip flops
~all the delicious summer fruit
~driving with all the windows down
~thunder & lightning storms
~hanging out with friends pretty much anytime
~going to the beach
~all the free time
Of course, there are not so good things about summer too such as
~sunburns
~temperatures over 95
~not seeing all your friends from school
At the beginng of each summer I always set goals for myself and most times I find when I'm heading back to school that I hardly did any of them. Why is it that when we have no time for certain things we crave to do them, and then, when we have all the time in the world we don't feel like doing them anymore? I don't know, but I'm really going to try to fulfill my goals this year. Maybe I need to set more realistic goals.
Between jobs, books, vacations, hanging out with friends, boating, and now blogging I know I will have a great summer.
As summer officialy starts on Sunday, may we all make the most of our warm, sunny days--taking time to enjoy each blessing that comes our way yet not letting it pass us by only to realize it's fall.
I have been home from college for 3 days and I'm already loving my summer. There are just so many wonderful things about summer how could you not love it? Some of my favorite things about summer include:
~sleeping in
~flip flops
~all the delicious summer fruit
~driving with all the windows down
~thunder & lightning storms
~hanging out with friends pretty much anytime
~going to the beach
~all the free time
Of course, there are not so good things about summer too such as
~sunburns
~temperatures over 95
~not seeing all your friends from school
At the beginng of each summer I always set goals for myself and most times I find when I'm heading back to school that I hardly did any of them. Why is it that when we have no time for certain things we crave to do them, and then, when we have all the time in the world we don't feel like doing them anymore? I don't know, but I'm really going to try to fulfill my goals this year. Maybe I need to set more realistic goals.
Between jobs, books, vacations, hanging out with friends, boating, and now blogging I know I will have a great summer.
As summer officialy starts on Sunday, may we all make the most of our warm, sunny days--taking time to enjoy each blessing that comes our way yet not letting it pass us by only to realize it's fall.
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